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I have so much rage, unsatisfaction, worry and envy in my heart. I can't bear seeing people do well when I don't. I did badly last exam. And I was terribly upset, I turned to people for consolation. My mom asked me to work harder next time. My friend too, she asked me to work harder. Did I not work hard? Now when I look at people, my unsatisfaction involuntarily cry spitefully: "I worked so much harder than all of you. You have absolutely no idea." Part of me just wants to show them. Next time, when I do well

This is crushing me

and I feel my negativity spreading, people are distancing themselves from me.

What do I do