Ready Hearts

An aunty in church once shared with me that when our hearts were ready, then God will surprise us with things that we didn't expect. I sorta understand then(well i thought i really did, as i always do) but until I really experience that READINESS of heart and suddenly receiving such a PLEASANT surprise from God, it really blows my heart away and I just know that it really is God :)

I grew up loving English language. Maybe it was because we attended English churches since I was young or maybe because my dad was really good at English. I remembered those dreams when I was small like " I will  go to other countries like the UK to study when I grow up, " and " I will want to marry some whitie someday." Those thoughts were so definite to me in my little mind and I thought it wouldn't be hard to achieve and I dreamt those dreams with my pure innocence. Oh, those were the days! hahaha..

When God started changing me little by little, I realised that life was not really about me. Its about Him and His purposes for my life. I realised that we needed money to go far to study. So I thought maybe after I marry we can go to those places i wanted to go for honeymoon. But my reality check tells me that I might not marry somebody so rich. Well this world isn't perfect, things don't always go our way. God comforts us that His ways are higher than our ways, though sometimes we don't really see it right before us. After some years, I was talking to myself in the bathroom one day, and I told myself that actually foreign countries like the UK are just another part of the world, like Malaysia is. I may not be able to travel to all countries in this world so perhaps the other part of the world that I wanted to go since I was young isn't meant for me. At that moment, I felt rest in my heart, its like a mild, sweet and sure rest deep down in your heart. I think its called contentment. ;)

In the same year in March, my mom proposed that we go to Switzerland for holiday because she's never been there and that we should go while they are still working. I still remember that it was during our family prayer time she just said that thoughtlessly ( i think). Anyway, i thought that it was just a passing daydream. But God was so amazing. My dad thought serious of that and looked up for tours. We prayed about it and asked if its God's will. By June, dad booked the tour and it was such a good deal! It was very very reasonable in terms of price and the places we were going to go and I could hardly believe it when my dad broke the news... WE ARE GOING TO PARISS!!! praise the Lord!=)=)=)=)=)=)=)

I asked God if it was really His will and I waited for his answer for some time and He said yes but its gonna be a bit hard. Who cares if God is so good to bring me there and give me something i wanted so much especiallly after I sort of let that go already, He really blessses us with our heart's desire and he's gonna to go with me and help me overcome the "hard part" so there, thank God  he really wants ready hearts to bless!! :)