They loved Canada, so I'd love to take them there.
Fly first class, stay in a cosy cottage, see the sights, sit by the fireplace. Enjoy the trip slow and fast whenever we want to, like sipping a hot cup of tea.
My brothers would come of course. They would enjoy it. We would be so happy, in a delightful place we have only dreamt of visiting.
Visiting Canada in itself would not give me as much joy, my family is included in the reason why visiting Canada would make me happy.
For that matter, visiting wherever doesn't matter. Perhaps we can do a trip a year, going wherever as a family, so long as we stay in luxurious places, I am sure we can enjoy it.
I'd also like to stay in France for two years. Maybe three. Let's say five years. It would give me time to learn the language. My family can came visit every now and then, they'd have a free place to stay for as long as they want, a nice comfortable place. They wouldn't have to worry about money on the trip, because accommodation is free, it takes off so much cost. I'd love to mingle with the French, learn their culture, visit the clubs and bars sometimes. Have a glass of wine in the evening in my high-rise apartment looking out to a dazzling view of the country, city lights and all. Funny but I imagine myself living here alone. Successful and stylish. A spy almost, blending into the country but really a traveller. If I could get PR here would be great as a security for the future, then my family can have a safe country to retreat to, if anything happen in our home country.
I'd also love to work jobs without worrying about money, without chasing for the progression in pay, just simply for the love of the job. If I could be an F1 engineer (in the war room, or at the pit wall each race) in my early 30s, then switch to bioinformaticist or genetic engineering or someone working in the hospitals in the lab. But not doing routine tests, but rather doing research to help doctors better identify diseases say. If a person's certain tumour marker is high, there is range of illnesses that could be possible. What protein or RNA is produced by which gene in which cell that we can test for, that can narrow the possibilites, hopefully pinpoint to one. Instead of doing expensive scans or letting it be. I have always wanted to work in a hospital, but the pay is so low and career progression is not great for this sort of role in my country.
If I could volunteer with the elderly community at church without worrying about the time spent there being equivalent to time not spent on improving myself career-wise so that I can earn more money.
If I could have respect from peers because of what I do and who I am, or I could just respect myself in fact, I'd be happy. If I have a job I enjoy without worrying about pay, having good money in savings, able to bring family to trips, able to have the luxury time to spend with them, I think I can respect myself. I would need to put work in to portraying myself suitably, clothing-wise, doing the perm hair dye I always wanted. I would definitely need to work on articulating myself better, having better voice image and maybe more solid ideas of what my views are on different things. Accumulate some identity capital. But these in my current state, are a luxury to pursue. Definitely not top of list, as my career and dating life is sort of in a frozen state.
Anyways it was nice thinking about these things. I was a bit lost as to what exactly can make me happy while walking back from work just now. I know I want to make God happy, but I feel like so many things can make God happy, you can justify doing every job wholeheartedly unto God will make Him happy, but would doing any kind of job make me happy just because it makes God happy? Probably not. Likewise for the type of life that would make me happy. Even though it is all in theory, it is good to picture.
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